When you lose interest

I had an interesting thought. When I lose interest is a class, discipline it is often not that I have learnt all I can (which is sometimes the case however) but that I don’t get to learn in my own way, apply my own techniques or ideas and take things forward in a way that I want to. Therefore I become isolated from the group just like what happens often with me in group work. I lose the passion that brought me to the subject to the first place and I disengage; losing touch with important ideas and feelings. Of course sometimes I write something and I forget how I was thinking and feeling when I wrote something so time itself can make you lose touch as well (which is why it is important to write down ideas clearly). It can be sad to say goodbye to something you thought you has much passion in but maybe its not too late to revisit it.

Architectural forms and cities

Different buildings are often created to represent certain ideas or evoke certain feelings intentionally or not. Looking at this idea of architectural forms representing peoples ideas feelings, certain shapes such as circles can be relaxing whereas sharp corners have a more menacing edge.

We can also look at interesting shape buildings like the ‘cheesegrater’ in the UK, the gherkin and the walkie talkie.These shapes embody certain ideas and forms. Or an building with columns add some kind of importance or significance to a building some how as they support it.

Another interesting idea is how we project feelings on to cityscapes, for example the vapourwave aesthetic may use imagery from Tokyo. A dreamy idea of something far of and a sort of blending into the city.


Thats all for now

The case against materialism

Materialistic lifestyles are encouraged in a culture which thrives on consumerism.


In a capitalistic society ideas get marketed as products and physical items. We go beyond the need to just buy the necessities plus perhaps the occasional luxuries and buy into all these products. It’s for the lifestyle it brings and the social status. Its these beliefs and views we gain that we want

We can look in ourselves and ideas within rather than buy stuff to fulfil a non-physical need or void in us. We can look to societal/intellectual constructs to help us in life which you could say as certain bits forms/aspects of “culture”. Although people say that culture is brainwashing. Yes many aspects are so to be avoided e.g. tv shows promoting ideologies of how to act in a subtle way without you even noticing. However some forms of music and art that a generated from cultural ideas are very interesting to look at. We can say experiences we gain are important because we learn from them that includes visiting new places (or old places again too of course).


Saying all this sometimes items do have a purpose in life, such as creative purposes or as non necessary tools its just when people try and use it to directly fill a void in their life or overly consume. More stuff doesn’t directly lead to happiness although yes some stuff is very useful and good or can lead to cool opportunities and fun things. Or intellectual stimulation.



Loneliness in the crowd

Recently I’ve been feeling a bit low and sad although perhaps an improvement over what I have felt in the not so long ago past. But what concerned me the most were the people around me. This is a little post on this.

People often influence what you do. Also when you want connection you usually seek it from people .So many people who are dulled out and that I find it hard to relate with. There are many people who are not worth spending time with and don’t really contribute to anything plus probably wouldn’t be able to relate to me either. Especially where I am at now (where people are even duller and seem to have a lack) the people I am required to associate with are often a drag on me and not a very good role models either.

The feeling of loneliness in the crowd is real. But the feeling that bugs me the most is that one of rejection. When you feel unwanted.

I do think to myself, right well don’t overthink all this just accept it. But having to deal with it all the time does make me sorta want to hide from the world further. I’ve already dealt with similar feelings in the past but it does get to me this, because I do try and reach out to people, but when that isn’t accepted it sorta bounces back to you as a feeling of disappointment. And each time I probably lose more composure and feel worse though the upside is more resilience (and my secondary school used to repeat over and over).

I suppose though challenges in life are good to some extent. But I guess isolation is after a while lonely especially when you don’t have other things to occupy you and after a while losing touch with things.

I’d say what is important though is finding connection to the self and enjoying life.

The opportunities and freedom you gain being alone are great. Like taking a quiet walk, observing things that others might not notice and going to places you want to go to.Sure there are missed opportunities with not being with people I suppose but you know if the people you could of been with are not worth it you probably aren’t missing anything and often people put up a facade. If drinking, doing drugs, listening to loud music are your game then  I rather not be involved.