You may have felt before the sensation holding in feelings that really need to be released but not knowing how exactly. It’s not as simple as just letting go. It’s like a big tangled up rope that is secured and held down at many points.
To target these sorts of things its usually a long term process. It is important though to have a ‘positive’ (i.e. for change) mindset about this. Also understanding how your feelings and thoughts and linked. The other thing to consider is to target these issues at the root. Overtime you may realise you had problems or issues you never thought you had so it’s never so simple and you have to approach these things at multiple angles. These sorts of things also exist at multiple levels so it is also complex in that sense.
We can see everything as abstract forms. The abstract components that make up life become connected, or you could say these abstract entities become stringed together. However I wouldn’t say these are real at all. Just another ‘fake’ way of seeing things but interesting at least.
We can see also that in the same way that people seem to function collection of objects, places can gain a sense of body where different parts become specialised over others and work together. Also these things form connections with other things and interlink. Nothing is not linked in someway even if indirectly.
We can see people as having different frequencies different skews different -orientations-
abstract wavelengths that do and reach different states and equilibriums of some kind (balanced or imbalanced).
When organisation is added to this chaos gives power to a controlled enity unit.
This organisation great and powerful and has far reach and power as it travels through and connects its components. This strength is good but can be harmful in removing independence and overtly controlling ‘the other’. Freedom of thought is important and to do what you want to do without always having others dictate this so you can take your own flow with things, even though influence from others can be useful too in some cases to change your direction.
Recently I’ve been feeling a bit low and sad although perhaps an improvement over what I have felt in the not so long ago past. But what concerned me the most were the people around me. This is a little post on this.
People often influence what you do. Also when you want connection you usually seek it from people .So many people who are dulled out and that I find it hard to relate with. There are many people who are not worth spending time with and don’t really contribute to anything plus probably wouldn’t be able to relate to me either. Especially where I am at now (where people are even duller and seem to have a lack) the people I am required to associate with are often a drag on me and not a very good role models either.
The feeling of loneliness in the crowd is real. But the feeling that bugs me the most is that one of rejection. When you feel unwanted.
I do think to myself, right well don’t overthink all this just accept it. But having to deal with it all the time does make me sorta want to hide from the world further. I’ve already dealt with similar feelings in the past but it does get to me this, because I do try and reach out to people, but when that isn’t accepted it sorta bounces back to you as a feeling of disappointment. And each time I probably lose more composure and feel worse though the upside is more resilience (and my secondary school used to repeat over and over).
I suppose though challenges in life are good to some extent. But I guess isolation is after a while lonely especially when you don’t have other things to occupy you and after a while losing touch with things.
I’d say what is important though is finding connection to the self and enjoying life.
The opportunities and freedom you gain being alone are great. Like taking a quiet walk, observing things that others might not notice and going to places you want to go to.Sure there are missed opportunities with not being with people I suppose but you know if the people you could of been with are not worth it you probably aren’t missing anything and often people put up a facade. If drinking, doing drugs, listening to loud music are your game then I rather not be involved.
Sometimes it is interesting to think about how different people think about the same thing differently. One example I learnt for geography at uni (which is quite an interesting example from the geo perspective so I will repeat it and add to it) was how someone could see a forest or woodland in different ways. It could be seen as a resource, or a place of biodiversity, or a place where you can go on walks or outdoor pursuits or a place of memories or somewhere isolated at night.
Perception of course varies more than that. As I mentioned previously on this blog language is one thing the affects perception e.g. how you see colours. But there are of course physical differences in people that will affect how somebody sees something, Synesthesia (wikipedia link) is one interesting occurrence in some people.
How do you define yourself? Is your sense of identity linked to the location you live in, or the people you associate yourself with? Does culture influence you? Or do you end up living to stereotypes? Many questions.
Many people act desperately to try to gain other peoples approval and therefore act in ways that they think other people would like instead of how they would genuinely like to act. Being genuinely true to yourself requires you to stop conforming and following others. This requires courage and overcoming the fear that you may come off as weird, strange or unnatural. Everyone is unique in their own way and although some people may think they are happier by acting fake, just for peoples’ approval or to fit in a certain group (e.g. at a school) or even just to make friends; by being fake you are probably not acting how you would truly want to deep down. This includes disagreeing with what people say sometimes and saying things some people may disapprove of although of course sometimes it is best not to say anything or to tone down what you are saying as you still need to be sensitive of other peoples’ opinions.
Ninety percent of the world’s woe comes from people not knowing themselves, their abilities, their frailties, and even their real virtues. Most of us go almost all the way through life as complete strangers to ourselves.–Sydney J. Harris